Tuesday, March 1, 2011

I want to wish upon a star... This night is too dark...


A winter blossom 
waiting for reprieve
It's always dry
every drop to decieve

promised life 
in the darkest days
star-less nights
moon-less it stays

sun wouldn't show up
It's dying within
all strength is from the elixir of life 
which forgives every sin

waiting for spring 
from ages and eons
shivering bees
pleading to move on

It has to dry
It has to give up now or later
There wont be sun
there wont be any water 

holding on still
all petals dry
each day being 
asked to die



The only wish 
to wish upon a star
this night is too dark
tonight is end of the flower

why did you make me
If I had to die
why did I blossom
If I had to cry

why gave me petals
If sun wouldn't touch me
why gave me life
If life wouldn't love me


the bee says
...
someday ill get something better
who would always be with me
love me fill me with more than my dreams
make me happy silence my screams
```
I can't talk
I never had my voice
I stay quiet
I never had a choice

be it costliest, shiniest of all liquids
they never can feed me
be it the brightest light, unless sun
they can never feel me

All I wanted
a calm spring by my side
a bright sun 
help me grow my petals wide

If It was not meant to be
I will soon wither without them
I can stay in the unknown
than be with anyone except them

the bee is worried for me
she wants me to feel fine
she cant give me, what I want
what I want, she can't find

                 ***
Even when we were different, time sealed us together
If it wasn't meant to be, it will pain forever
                 ***
you say
I must find someone worth more than you
who would take good care of me.
my love is a dying sapling's strife
petrol n diesel would worth more than water 
but they will never save its life

Feel the fear


I could never realise...what fear could do to me until
I realized what your absence ...already had...


fear....fear is one of the basic/innate emotions..(sic)
just like anger, joy, sadness...
related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance
with regard to future..present tensions...
continuation of something...that seems unpleasant
or might later...

I love you and I always would
though, you dont feel the same for me ...
I fear, I'll lose you soon

a negative emotion gives birth to an internal fear...
consequently ...distrust...
a human's strength lies in ...will...hope...dreams
...unfortunately fear destroys will... obliterates hope
and instills nightmares to take care of dreams...
so much damage done single handedly...
and they say
...a relationship lives as long as trust does...
and
...sometimes you lose, all that had to be yours forever, just by the fear of losing it...

......
If fear exists...there has to be something that could balance its existance.
Nothing exists without it's counterpart.
......

If it was meant to be ...it will happen
If not ...God wants to give me something better
though...whatever he gives me..
I chose you...and you are the best he could send my way...
...how could ..I save myself 
from your pretty smile...

Faith is the confident belief...
...trust in the truth..
...trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing...
not resting on logical proof or material evidence...

...
clearly the true opposite of fear...
...

worth the worthy positive emotion
Faith is recognized as a virtue,
although there are various interpretations of the role of faith in one's daily life,
its foundation, and what rests upon it...

...a mystery in the entirety would never be entirely demystified...

It is useless to fear of anything, that has to happen
courage lies in facing the truth...
having faith...what goes from you has to come back...
trust from you..would be awarded by trust itself
...from the entrusted...equalled or magnified...
make a choice
... to worry...
         or
...to marvel this gift...
and they say...

...everything lives as long as trust does...
and
...sometimes miracles happen, just by believing in yourself...
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I never wanted to leave you
I'll never like that
but 
our happiness lies in my choice...
to let go of it
       than
to think about it forever...
If it didn't mean happiness to you
I would have still thought about it...
since its ours...
I chose to sacrifice my justified fear
for my worthy love...



...just be happy with your life...
...though, It would be hard for me without you...
...i'll always be there if you ever need...
...as close as your shadow...
...weep together,smile forever...

first note

Made this when I was done with school waiting for college


long ago wen i started my journey 
i knew this day would come,
when ill have to chose....
the road has seen its end the day has come
choices are two i have to select one
1st is of hardwork which pays, the vision of brilliant future, loads of money and fame...
2nd one is of a dream even thinking about it makes me so miserable...so lame
it shows me the dream of being with my playmates...and all old friends....
long ago wen i started my journey
i knew this day would come,
then my choice the 1st vision was obvious...
y now it isnt...?
......alas so long was this 14 year old journey...
.i fell in love with my path rather than my destination...

First post

:) this is my first blog post